Journal Entry: Wed Jul 23, 2014, 5:45 PM
Yes yes... it's the bane of my existence, my fickleness. I wish it only applied for my doll stuff, but actually, my doll universe is the only thing that remained the same for so long.
I was writing about the change in the universe, and going for a different approach. I thought for months of how to work this out, change characters future to this new one, and their relationships, I had almost everything plotted and written down. Then I realised.... my dolls.... the simply don't want this to happen.
I know I sound like nuts lol... but it is true. They don't want to change! Julian doesn't want to not surf, Kieran doesn't want not to have money, he doesn't want to lose other people in his like... none of them do. Even Laken who now had Jim again, would rather not have another Jim other than the one he knows. So yeah.... my boys still want to have a band... and want to have whatever life they are having.
My main reason to do this was to have a more creative freedom, but in the end, I'm just not inspired and to change all the 6 years of work in this universe is sad... and I'm not sure it's what I wanna do. My characters seemed lost and I just felt like I couldn't develop any new character.
Of course, I'm still unhappy with how the universe is set. I feel that I'm not unique in anyway anymore. I can't have nice ideas and I feel like I can't change my characters because that would be OOC.
BUT.... i'm wrong. People change, they cut or dye their hair, they get tattoos, piercings, they change jobs, likes... people are constantly changing. Look at me! I changed so much in 6 years, why couldn't my characters? Their world changes in a much slower pace, I have only ages them a year since I got them, but I think changes are needed.
Yeah... I guess it will all go back to normal, which means rewriting Laken and Jim meeting up again. Oh well...