Overwhelmed.

Omg... I am feeling so overwhelmed for the past 3 weeks. I feel like I haven't really had a weekend to myself and when I did, I went and done something to tire me out with something not really productive. I've had a long weekend this week, but I had halloween party, ended up in a hospital after a bad reaction to the booze and a panic attack. It was not pretty, then I forgot my contacts on when I went to bed and woke up with a foggy vision. Went to the hospital again to get my eyes checked. Nightmare!

I somehow managed to update my comic but I am again behing because now it's winter here and I have little time to photograph if it's shot in the morning. I can only do it on weekends.  But I'm struggling with keeping up with NaNoWriMo. I really want to write this novel, I've wanted for over 10 years, but it's he 7th today, and I haven't written more than 2000 words. I will try to catch up this weekend. I need to start writing at least 2000 words a day to manage the 50,000 by the end of the month.

My plan is to write 3000 on Saturday and 4000/5000 on Sunday. Saturday I need to shoot the comic turing the day. I want to get as many shots as possible to move the story further and hopefully cover the next 2 months of story. Then get at least 5 pages done to be released during november while I'm busy writing.

If that wasn't enough, I'm having to stay late at work on Friday to help students with their study for language proficiency exams and university entrance exams. I'm studying Japanese 2 nights a week, I work up to 10pm one other night a week. So I'm left with monday night as the only time I have to do stuff at home.

I haven't done the laundry in 2 weeks, I haven't cleaned the house in one. It's really getting to me. When I'm overwhelment my brain shuts down and I start to forget everything that needs to be done. Nightmare.

Anyway, look at how many words I have written here while I could have been working on novel. I really want to finish this one and not only beat NaNoWriMo. I'm starting to consider writing as a possible future thing, but it would be a good start to actualy finish a novel and not just start it like I've done zillions of times.